Reality

 It is an interesting position to be in to watch the different aspects of Jim's healing over the weeks. The physical, the mental. From the blank stare of unfamiliarity, to hints of awareness, to recognition. Yet, it is all progression. It's the wires connecting and the batteries charging, synapses coming alive, and it all influences where we might be for the day.

The other day, I heard references and words that I recognized as engineering. Telecommunications engineering. Maybe there were some computer tech references, since he is known to be a go-to guy to figure out computer glitches and cyber stubbornness.

Yesterday, he apparently was much younger and starting out with the phone company. And, even younger still. When I got there a little later. I wasn't sure he knew me at first, but he grabbed my hand, and I heard the word... Honey. At times, he seemed to like his sheet tent a lot and disappeared under it when he had enough. He started out a little unsettled, but became calmer as the day went on.

The fact that he is more awake, interactive and participating changes everything. Much is being required of him. He is being challenged, and I think that appeals to his inner sense of competition. In 24 hours, he went from a 10 minute transfer to a wheelchair for a bed change, to a 30 minute wheelchair sitting with his head up and change of scenery to a large open hallway, His reality changing by the minute it seems.

It is so fluid. Reality. His. Mine. Yours. It is so influenced by external elements. A simple change of attitude can change your reality from a sad or stressed day, to a day of possibilities and gratitude. I am anxious to see the reality trip we are taking today.